i jacked off just a minute ago
so lemme talk while my heads more clear
ive said more shiit in the lab in the last few tracks
than i have in the past four years

i realized way back that this world was cold
i think i musta been 14 years old
knew that it would never be the same
withdrew and i started playin video games -1

every single session was a fantasy to ward away depression
escapin felt so great that it became a real obsession
i didn't need the popularity or approval
and didn't give a fuck about impressions

soon enough the buzz'd fade, never gettin laid
never gonna get re-spect for my name----
either coast on a river of shit until the grave
or i swim upstream and complain

i see the need to try something
and so i buy something i put it in a bowl and i fry something
and that was it. somethin really clicked.
had me all "man, _i bet i can get in with this"

and so i did. started makin friends
learned what it took to be cool and i learned to pretend
flip a couple zips make bucks
plus a few new names in my phone at the end

couple years roll by, im 18
any faith in a faith is fading
cuz it hurts so bad when i wake that
i hate every fate that i'm contemplating

handicaps teach a man a thing or two
one, you're not special you are evrybody else
two. theres people who are worse off than you
there are people out there who would die for your health and do

and so i moved to college with a picc line
found a beautiful chick.. and made the chick mine
waited six months, he was a good friend
but i believe thats a tale for a new time

lets get back to my world and my fantasy it crumbled to insanity
as soon as she no longer saw a man in me
i can't believe i took my girl for granted she's
exactly what i stand around and wish the world had handed me

im still arthritic but i've got hip hop now
a new Mrs. to kiss while the time pass
she's not as warm but she's there fORME
when it's stormy, no she wouldn't leave unless i ask

and i would never cuz i've got nobody better
nobody that she could ever be replaced by in my mind
that line's heavy cuz i said it once already
but fuck it i can't waste more time on the rewind